Now I'll be honest, intimate emotional situations make me nervous, especially when I can't get away from them, even if that getting away is by not making eye contact. So to be forced into that situation was pretty intense and I could feel all kinds of different conflicting emotions inside that I couldn't separate. It was a really strange but almost exhilarating feeling. Once again I was reminded why I'm at this school. Those are the classes I want to be in. The classes that encourage me to push my limits and gain insight.
So after this class, I went home, did some reading for another class and fell asleep on the couch. I kept waking up periodically until I finally decided that I needed the sleep and should just sleep, and wow, was my dream vivid.
I dreamed that I was at home in my dorm, although the building was completely different and a couple of blocks away from where it is now, and I was stressed but amazed all at the same time. The sun was setting behind some trees that are on the street a couple of blocks away and so everything outside was this golden orange color. A large group of people including one guy that I felt I was interested in, but didn't recognize, said they were going either surfing or skateboarding. I was a little bummed because I don't know how to do either, when my dream cut away to a movie like clip. It was two characters in a club, the classic tale of a guy trying to get a girls attention and, though she's clearly interested, she knows how to keep his. It made me realize that just because I didn't know how to skateboard, didn't mean I couldn't go along, so I decided to go watch. Then it turned into this more stressful but still amazing dream of trying to get my stuff to go hang out with the skateboarders, but I had left my key in my apartment, so I had to get upstairs somehow and none of my roommates were home. Craziness. And this is stuff I actually worry about, because forgetting your key means you have to pay $10 each time. So anyway, the point of the story is that this dream was so saturated with color and felt so inspiring and was just all together amazing. It felt like a reminder of why I am where I am. (Not including the losing the key crap. That's just stressful and sucks.) The whole time I saw the dream as if it were a movie, which is interesting because I don't think I've ever had that feeling before.
So now I'm ready for another theater class and unfortunately I have two writing classes and a drafting class tomorrow. Whooo... Party... I like those classes okay, but they're not theater classes. I could do theater every day and be perfectly happy. I even felt like a geek when the teacher was giving us homework and when everyone groaned, I said to the girl next to me, "I love theater homework." She seemed to think that was slightly odd, and I just wonder, "WHY ARE YOU HERE!?" Now that's a little extreme but you get the idea. Why would someone pay $38,000 per year if they weren't excited about their major. The days in between theater classes are going to be killer. I need to find something else to do that relates to it.
Anyway, there's ups and downs but over all, I'm loving it here.
